Kathryn Reese is a queer writer living on Peramangk land in Adelaide, South Australia. Her poems are in The Engine Idling, Temple in a City, Crowstep and Red Room Poetry. Flash in Glassworks, Wigleaf & Literary Namjooning. Collaborative writing in Gone Lawn, Midway Journal & Many Wor(l)ds.
There are secrets in this house like organza
curtains they move, swell up with the afternoon
breeze. They filter the light, slow the movement
of air, they do nothing for the humidity.
This might be your earliest memory: you have skin,
you have sweat, your fingers contain oils
that will spoil everything. You also
make too much noise, you must
sit here and watch the curtains dance
and shadows making runes on the opposite wall.
Only a stormbird dares to call out
for what it wants: a cool change, rain.
Crying won’t get you what you want.
You want to touch the curtains, not just
with your fingers but to wrap yourself
up in them, to feel the lace hug
your shoulders, your back, your neck,
to feel the soft creases against your face
to see through the weave and maybe
the curtains would dance with you,
twirling and billowing out from your waist
you, on your toes, the prettiest dancer, a sunbeam.
The stormbird calls again.
The curtains are sucked back
against the flyscreen. You have left
a sweaty fingerprint on the windowsill dust.
I wrote Hush in a moment of homesickness for childhood: quiet, sultry afternoons, my grandparents' house, and that stormbird with its too-often unfulfilled hope of rain. I hope the couplets and enjambment give a sense of the lazy breeze and a time when everything could change with a crack of thunder.